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Wednesday, September 26th, 2007
9:25 am	new livejournal i started a new livejournal for my writing project. those wishing to still be my friend can go to trex11 and add me, please do because i don't think i'm going to check this old one anymore. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 31st, 2007
7:37 pm	okay,fine i do believe this falls under the catagory of tmi. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
4:59 pm	holy fucking shit i'm graduating in december. i am moving a mile away. but john is moving to (many miles away). pray to god i won't be one of those whiney girls in a long distance relationship. that is all. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 11th, 2006
11:28 am	hahaha You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism. </td> Satanism 92% agnosticism 83% atheism 67% Buddhism 54% Islam 54% Paganism 54% Judaism 42% Christianity 33% Hinduism 29% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 28th, 2006
12:50 pm	my highligh of the week i was at the bathroom counter (skipping seminary, yes) and looking for something in my purse when i pricked myself on a safety pin. i said oww. and the girl next to me asked if i was okay. i was fine but it felt nice that she asked. it made me so happy. (Comment on this)
12:48 pm	so.. it's saturday morning and i am so fucking wired. i guess this is to make up for how dead tired i was as i was falling asleep at the wheel driving two miles home at eleven pm (damn curfew) last night. btw... sometimes driving while tired is as worse as driving drunk. i got home and couldn't even make it through the that 70's show marathon they always show on friday nights as i am chilling out from my night out while most people who don't have nazi curfews are out living normal teenage debaunchering lives. i am glad most im usually at his house (him being my boyfriend as weird as it is to say that out loud) which is not even half a mile away and feels like if i stretched out my arm i could reach it. which sometimes makes it worse. am i making any sense? we went to his friends house and the crowd consisted of long hair black metal guys who problaly think im weird. he was on slowly on his way to getting drunk while i was painfully somber as i always am, because i am always everyone's ride. all hail the designated driver. when i kissed him goodnight, he tasted like clean vegetables. (don't ask me how i know the taste, i haven't had vegeatbles in so long). i am not a party girl and i never will be. most of my parties were spent hiding in the bathroom, reading a book or sitting in a crowd of people staring at the cobwebs on the walls. now i spend them zoning out until he pokes my stomache and laughs when i jump and asks if im okay. definatly not a party girl, but i dont care. Current Mood: confused (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 27th, 2005
12:52 pm	i'mherewerehereyourehereimhere yes this is me updating my journal. a lot happens between then and now and i can't really tell. i keep making mistakes a lot of them. words, and kisses, and yelling that i can't take back. but it keeps getting better, the more mistakes i make. living is so hard, so real, so... uncomfortable and i can't believe i let myself sleep for a year missing out on this... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
5:41 pm	your lips are stained with dramamine and catholic guilt spring break is a vaguely painful. i am so bored and i hate arizona. i cut my hair and i vaguely miss it. why is everything i feel vague? is this a mental disorder? i vaguely think so. (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
8:25 am	when the president talks to god, are the conversations brief or long is it always one way or another? are you either a slut or a prude. a whore or a frigid bitch. i am sick of black and white. good and bad. drugs are bad sex is bad music is bad.... lalalalala (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
8:31 am	this is the end the get up kids broke up!? this is the beginning of the end. i was just thinking yesterday when they would give up... (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
8:00 am	i might be an introvert to you a shallow fashionista. dressed just like the girl beside you i went to ihop last night (chedder bacon crepe v. good by the way) and out of no where, my parents started going over the standards for "celestrial dating". oh god. in the middle of ihop, my parents went over on how i should never: - "make out" or "neck" -"park" -french kiss because it "simulates a sex act" -go to r or pg-13 movies with a date. -go on single dates -date non members -lay down next to my date. -go in the room of the member of the opposite sex. -be alone in a room. -stay out past 12;30 am and, if anybody i date fails to follow these rules, i should "drop them flat" this is so sick and wrong. i think their rules are more unnatural and sick than sex could ever be. i went to basken-robbins in a truck full of mexicans listening to shania tawne... must go to nine inch nails in may... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 25th, 2005
8:10 am	because i never, never sleep alone.. work has been crazy. six people have quit in the past two weeks and i have had to work everynight this week. i should stop listening to the faint. i was very sad saturday night because i was listening to saves the day and i realized they weren't my favorite band. i have no favorite band and i blame it on the faint. it is all the faints damn fault. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
8:30 am	morning today is valentines day but i am not into the whole eating chocolate and feeling sorry for my self thing. i have to work tonight. i smoked my first cigarette on friday night. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
8:48 am	would everyone please stop looking at me? i am very tired. and mad because rise against was sold out last night... i hate being so emo and i hate that no one gets it. i am not feeling good right now. i hate my skin and my hair and my eyes and my jeans. i hate being insecure and confused because everyone else has it so together. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 20th, 2005
8:05 am	none what i am reading right now: lullaby by chuck palahunick (very good so far) my favorite book: catcher in the rye by j.d. salinger what i am listening to right now: nine inch nails ( i found that trent reznor was born the same year as my mom. disturbing) favorite band: if you don't know this by now, then you are not my friend. recent favorite movie: garden state/ elephant all-time favorite movie: fight club my scenester look: blue-jeans, dyed black hair, blackshirt, black jacket, my checkered vans, black belt. you could never be this cool. these are just simple directions for if youever get the need to be more like me and i know that need comes around a lot, atleast once a month. also, try these helpful hints: -complain a lot. -have 11 spoons in your back pack at all times. -become attractive to boys that work at subway. -write only in pens and lower case letters. -make plans you'll never do. -spend an entire mutual/church hour sitting on a brick wall drawing on your shoe. -be so retard you can't drive. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
8:35 am	the 5 rules of hardcore 1. be straight 2. don't be late 3. bench your weight 4. don't masturbate (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
8:39 am	you're uninviting unrewarding i do not know what i am feeling right now and maybe i don't want to write anything because words trash some things and i don't even know if i want the thing i am feeling to be trashed or not. i don't know. Current Mood: unknown (Comment on this)
Monday, January 3rd, 2005
8:24 am	i have nothing to say i am not in a good mood because my sister is getting married tomorrow and it is depressing because it reminds me of everything i am supposed to do but won't. ever. and then some. i missed the new year because of some shitty work shit. here is a mind blowing fact: next year i will be 18. this is the only fact that is keeping me sane right now. tonight is the rehearsel dinner and i will most likely be driven to some sort of homicide. Current Mood: blue monday (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
8:31 am	well it is nothing i am irrelevent. i am detatched and unreasonable. the want to help me. and i do not want to be helped. i want to go to hell and i want god to hate me. and i am quite happy being in this state of irrelevent detatchment. and i don't want anyone to touch me or try to understand me. i just want to read and sleep and listen to chris conley and write fucked-up things in my fucked up journal about my fucked up like. why can't they just leave my alone Current Mood: vaya (Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
8:01 am	they didn't have party music in ancient scotland- boog my english teacher says holden is immature. i don't because i think he is smarter than anyone else i know. if only he live in arizona, and i knew him, and, uh, he was real. i think it is stupid how people think that is you have no idea what you are doing in life then you are just immature. i wanted to be a stripper when i was eight, was i more mature then? i would be one of those ugly strippers with no teeth who got to screw the truckers. Current Mood: next (Comment on this)